Archive for January, 2010

Life Status

Thursday, January 7th, 2010

A quick update on how things are going for me in areas that matter at the moment.

Academics
- did better than I had expected for the fall term. Hoping to snag more A’s in the winter term.

Family Life
- nothing new here, although I do kind of wish we had more family dinner outings. I don’t remember going to many of them, but they were interesting.

Religious Circumstances
- visiting YK did some good to me, but it reminded me again how far I am away from the community there. I suppose it’s a slipper slope, where if I attend less I just get further away. Complaining about it now does nothing because I’ve been on that slope for a good two years now.

Future Plans
- Albania or a trip of that nature is still high on my list for personal growth. Graduate school is still over the horizon, but it’s still pretty distant. I don’t see myself extending the grueling months of pain that is school for psychology. I might just end off graduating with good grades to keep my options open and join the workforce. Experience is something that I lack right now.

Relationship Status
- nonexistent, I’m terrible with relationships and I don’t see myself entering one soon. Unless of course it’s someone that fits my A+ category of females. Or that girl in my new class…. oh the possibilities

Writing Status
- I still need to do more research on my grandfather’s life, and it’s pretty tough to ask my own father because he’s taking this so roughly. I’ll put this in the postponed indefinitely category, and perhaps move on to another project. I think my academic writing has gotten better (as shown in my recent essays), but I still need to work on structure and clarity. I’ve been wanting to embark on a long writing project (thanks to those of you who encouraged me), but that’s still pretty far away. My brother being the English major is a huge shadow I have to either sidestep or move through. My first big project might be the “half fictional autobiography” (wow what a mess) of my grandfather. I have no idea, the only thing I’m moderately good at is spewing my own thoughts.

Weight Status
- fuck off, I’m trying to exercise and lose this winter weight :(

The Legacy

Sunday, January 3rd, 2010

Things have been troubling the past few weeks. My grandfather has a serious case of Alzheimer’s disease and from what I have seen, he is a blank slate. When I went to visit him the one weekend during new years (happy new years by the way), he wasn’t there at all mentally. He didn’t do anything but sit down, stand up, and shuffle around.

I don’t know too much about my grandparents or the history of my family. The main reason why I took a Korean class at University was for one simple fact. I wanted to ask my grandfather about his life, and give him a few questions he could answer in Korean. I wanted to know where he came from and what life was like. From what I’ve heard, he was an important man. I believe somewhere in the backlog of posts, there’s a mention of me taking Korean class for just this reason. It pains me to say that I am all but too late. There is nothing more for him to do. He now lives alone in a small apartment with his wife, who takes care of him alone. And they live far away from all other relatives, including us.

It is really sad. So this is my tribute to my father’s dad. I am going to write about what I know and fill in the blanks so that at least I’ll look back one day and remember my grandfather. But alas, University starts tomorrow and I am too tired to start it. I have a basic idea of what I want to write and I’ll be churning it out any time I have free time. That might not be too likely this month since I have a lot of work to do.

To me, my grandfather is already gone. So I say, farewell. I am proud to carry on the Yoo name.