I was actually going to write another lengthy rant post, but I decided against that. I’m in a better place in regards to my family right now. I’m horribly lonely, but happiness still lingers here. It’s been so long since I’ve actually felt lonely, that it actually caught me off guard today. In the past I’ve powered through lonliness and I wondered why it had hit me so hard today.
I was reviewing old photos and letters I had recieved from really old close friends when I realized something sad. I had changed. Not a little, but a lot. My values, my lifestyle, and my personality had changed so much. Looking back these couple years, I can truthfully say that nothing was really memorable. That’s when the feelings of lonliness hit me. It didn’t help that I also lost something precious to me this weekend. The tiny thing held a lot of sentimental value and losing it was devastating. It was part of the past I so desperately had tried to cling on to.
I love you, I trust you.
Waiting for your love, always by your side.
You’re the one that I love.
You’re the one that I trust.
You’re the only one.
I love you, I trust you.
It is time to start a new chapter.