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I think it can be agreed that consistent people without wild mood swings are the more mature ones. Given though, that women sometimes have breaks in their consistency due to physiological* changes, can be forgiven. I have a bone to pick with the other people, and I’ve reached my limits in enduring them. It seems to occur mostly at night with people, and their character seems to change almost immediately.

 Maybe they are tired, or maybe they are just fucking stupid. For goodness sakes, I find myself dancing around certain words because they trigger outbursts of anger. I also believe that these people do not recognize their own stupidity as they begin to sharpen their words and lash out. Feelings of superiority and recognition of faults in others make them bring out their true feelings about things. They will target weaknesses that a friend normally wouldn’t attack, and say things that are completely socially unacceptable. I wish I could post my documented happenings of this, but it would be ill suited for my friends who would find themselves the focus of attention here.

I understand it’s okay to be mad sad happy angry joyful or neutral. We all have emotions and feelings, but what comes into play here is control. Whenever I know myself to be changing emotionally, I”ll usually say it out loud to the one I’m ranting or talking to. “I feel angry cause of this and this.” Or “I feel happy because of this and this.”, instead of quietly sitting alone and waiting for someone to ask an innocent question and explode.

What a common trend in everyone is the sharpness of words. At nighttime as stated before, words tend to be sharper and faster. What I mean by ’sharper’ is that the words sting. They are not like the person’s usual talk, and it is compeltely alarming to be beaten down by words by someone who you thought to be a friend. I can understand if this happens once in a while, but (believe or not) it’s becoming a consistent habit of changing constantly. I know I make blunders while talking on msn, misinterpretations and such, but it is human to do so. The best way to tell if someone is not in control of their self is when you ask them a simple question that during the day time would warrant no attack. I asked this person a question at night and of course I was harshly judged and attacked.

What does it take to get some damn consistency here? Some stability or mental soundness. I only know of a few who have this, and out of them I only seriously talk to one. It’ll be safe to say his name since I’m not putting him down, so thanks Chris for not being moody and retarded. As for the others, just go to bed at night. Don’t stay up, you’re way out of your element. I don’t like to admit it, but it seems when the sun goes down, people tend to bring out their nasty side and say things that they probably felt inside. I mean this completely. If you want to say something to me or someone else, DO NOT let yourself be unguarded and let it come out nastily. Control it, don’t let your stupidity of being unable to deal with these mental burdens make you attack others. You will lose friends (I know that well), and more importantly you’ll close yourself in. It could be handled much better. People are too ridden with insecurities, jealousy, and being unable to accept themselves. As someone told me, “I’m not as bad as you because I don’t say what I truly think.” Really? I let it go out in the open and I don’t care what people think. I know I’m not perfect and I can live with that. But can you? Will I have to be a continual punching bag for your misgivings? Grow up, and grow a pair. Seriously.

Stable rocks turn into shifting sands, powerful flames turn into vicious burning acid, and water turns to ice. Control yourself.

*The dreaded pms.